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Dont have time to find you&talk in person+is important. If they consent to wing removal/exp treatment, can i remove?

You know, I miss having you around the house. (*･∀･)／♡＼(･∀･*)

[ locked to Iris Fortner ]

My brother told you that it might be in my best interest to send you a journal.

How have you been faring? I'm sorry we didn't meet under the best of circumstances. It's always difficult when Ken comes to town.

[ locked to Kaden ]

Now I see what you meant by two surprises.

So quick to replace me, huh? Here I thought you were glad to have me back.

Prompt:

I’m trying to keep sane as the rules keep changing
Families aren’t what they were

Character: Lily
'Verse: Rift

Dear Iris,

( all i want to say to you )
Lily

Jane,

He didn't do anything. I was overreacting. Sometimes, it's difficult for me when he's not doing so well. But he didn't do anything. His Calling is just being rather difficult right now, and I swear it eats at my brain. It's just the usual -- trouble sleeping, trouble eating. He just -- it's been a while since he's let himself actually take a break and I'm not sure when he's going to next. But he didn't do anything. He's not doing anything. Just. Not really taking care of himself, but that's nothing new.

It seems like we're all self-sabotaging, huh? You know you need to stay on your meds, Jane. I don't know where I'd be without you. I can't afford to lose you, and I love you so much. You know that, right? I love you.

Take care of yourself and that's enough for me. You don't need to stand by me or anything. Just take care of yourself. Please.

And don't be scared for me. I can take care of myself. Things aren't that bad. I graduated with a BS in Psychology and while I think the family's a bit upset with me over my choice of schools, things are doing okay on that front.

But it's not his fault. You remember the Conrad explosion, right? That wasn't his fault. That's why -- that's why things are so hard right now. I'd be able to handle this, if I could handle myself. I need to learn to cope better because he needs me.

As for Justin... social services was going to take him away because after the Conrad. After the Conrad things got really bad. I was. Under it and you know how those things can be. Claustrophobia's a tough one sometimes! And then my boyfriend didn't understand that I needed some time to cope and things just went all to hell.

They put me back on my drugs and I don't know where Justin is. They won't tell me where my son is. I told them I don't need the drugs, but they say if I don't take them, I won't ever be able to get him back. It's not my fault. I'm not actually mentally ill, it's just some problems with my Calling. I hope they'll give him back. I miss my baby boy. He was the only thing I had left to live for, you know?

I'd call, but it's hard to talk. Kaden doesn't like it when I'm on the phone around him, so it's easier to type up emails. Thank you, though. It means a lot.

I love you, even if it's been too long since we've seen each other. I guess with the hospital visit, you're not going to be able to make it up to Chicago for a bit, and Kaden's work keeps him here, so I'll just have to keep you in my heart, rather than in person.

And don't be sorry. I'm sorry for sending that email. I'd had too much to drink and it had been a bad day. But I promise -- things are good here. Kaden's doing fine and I just have a little stress left over from the accident. None of it's a big deal, so don't worry about it and don't be sorry.

I love you too. So much.

Lily

[ this email comes from lily.fuchizaki@gmail.com, rather than her old email. ]

I'm sorry I disappeared.

Things have been difficult here.

They took away Justin. ...you probably already know that. I understand why they took him away. I'm really not a fit mother. Especially not with the problems I'm having with Kaden.

I miss talking to you. I guess I understand why you haven't emailed me since. I'm sure you have more important things on your mind. In fact, I guess I'm probably interrupting right now. Your research. Something. I don't know. I don't even know why I'm emailing you.

I guess I don't know who else to talk to.

I - I spend a lot of time wondering why I'm not an Angel of Vengeance. I mean. I know it was something Kaden was afraid of. I don't know if you ever knew how bad things were. I mean - obviously they weren't that bad. He's doing a lot better. In regards to me, I mean. Things aren't like when we were kids.

I knew he would get better.

[ the email switches into Japanese ]

I have a lot of nightmares.

About being an Angel of Vengeance. Of losing Kaden. Of losing myself.

Of him leaving.

Of



I don't know how to fix this. He's broken. He's being so good but he's broken, Sumiko.



















How can I fix him?



I can't even fix myself.

[locked to Kaden]

Can we go home... for a bit after I graduate?

I want to see Mom, not at a reunion.

[email to Jane]

I might be coming home for a bit.

I think we should take a break.